Saturday, December 31, 2016

A Buffet of Nine Free Kindle Books

How are you doing this fine last day of 2016?  I'm working on finishing up a few things I intended to get done this year.  In my defense, all of my plans for this year have gone sideways due to the husbands unexpected health issues.  If I have one takeaway from 2016 it is that I will never make any kind of long term plan again.  All that business about affirming you will do this or that at a certain time has never worked for me, and yet I fall for it on a pretty regular basis.

At this point in my life I am affirming that my husband will be well today - and perhaps tomorrow.  That today I will make an effort to do something to increase my fitness level.  And that today I will do something to try and increase my trickle of writing income to a flood.

It is entirely possible you read this blog and have never picked up one of my books.  I limit myself somewhat by publishing only for the Kindle, but it is easier for me with my limited resources and time.  In hopes that you will give one of my books a try, and hoping - I admit - to catch the attention of those who might have gotten a Kindle for Christmas, I am offering a buffet of my books free for the next few days.  They run the gamut from oldest to, well, somewhat newer given I haven't published anything this year.  From hard core sex stories to children's fantasy.  Like with any buffet, grab yourself a Kindle and browse the table, taking a bit from this book or that one and maybe coming back for seconds.

1 - In A Heartbeat, a short story Although this was published some years ago, it is indicative of one line of writing I wish to pursue.  The thriller.  If you only have a few minutes to spare, this will take less than an hour of your time.  If I'm doing my job right this one hour will take you from a relaxing walk wondering at the beauty of nature, to adrenaline drenched fear.  Maybe you will be impressed enough to risk investing a bit more time in a novel by me.

In A Heartbeat - US 
In A Heartbeat - UK
In A Heartbeat - Canada
In A Heartbeat - Australia

2 - Moving On  Is the first novel I completed, published, and later published on the Kindle.  It is also a Nanowrimo novel - again, the first time I finished that goal as well.  Like many first novels, it is somewhat autobiographical - although I also borrow elements from other peoples stories that I have been told over the years.  So it is, but it isn't. If you are a nature lover, you will enjoy the quiet trip down the river, and if you are a kayaker and camper you will enjoy those aspects as well.  But I also got up on my soapbox and got in a few rants about things that bother me in this world; homelessness, our societies attitude towards the sex trade, among other things.  In a way, this book comes closest to a style of writing I admire - Dean Koontz.  In the midst of the most harrowing terror tale, he will sit down for a few paragraphs and talk sense about something that is nonsensical in our society.  And then get on with the fear.  I've always considered those little deviations the best part of his books.

That said, I haven't written anything remotely like it since - except perhaps One Woman, One Kayak, Bliss which is a series of short essays about my kayaking experiences.

Moving On - US
Moving On - UK
Moving On - Canada
Moving On - Australia

3 - Blue Dragonfly is the first in a planned series of children's science fantasy books.  That's me, breaking the genre barrier.  You see, it is powered by a fantastical character, Mr. Odon Ata, who is a very special kind of shape-shifter.  He has been almost any animal you can name and lived an entire life.  He has some marvelous (and otherwise scientifically accurate) stories to tell about animals.  The protagonist is a 10 year old boy named Tom who is being raised by a single mother.  The first book is about - you guessed it - dragonflies.

The idea for this was suggested to me by a wonderful old french fairy tale about a boy who hides in a cave and discovers it's magical powers by accident.  In the fairy tale the boy only turns into the cool animals - like bears - and the whole experience is summed up as "he was the mightiest bear in the forest" until he goes back into the cave, goes to sleep and wakes up as something else.  I really love old fairy tales, so expect more and more of them to be retold or used in bits here and there.

I am really proud of Blue Dragonfly because it has three five star reviews.  I do know one of the reviewers, but the other two are complete strangers.  No idea how they found my book or who they are.  But they felt it worthy of five stars.  Book Two is out (The Weaver) and Book Three is in process and has been all year.  I finally figured out what is wrong with it.  Only I could take three intriguing characters and write a boring story.  I believe I've got a fix for it - and it is tops on my list of things to do in 2017.

Blue Dragonfly - US
Blue Dragonfly - UK
Blue Dragonfly - Canada
Blue Dragonfly - Australia

4 - Cutting Away The Pain is a sex story.  A reader once told me it was a romance, and it is, but probably not the kind you are used to thinking of as a romance.  For one thing - I don't prissy boots around about sex.  I don't like euphemisms.  I think this book is by far and away the best sex story I've ever written.  It was inspired by a friend who asked me (I am well known as a dom) if there was ever a time I could have been a submissive instead.  After a few days of rolling that around in my head I knew there was one point in time, a turning point, when if one particular sort of person had stepped into my life everything would have been very different.  This little novella is not for the faint of heart but it is a story of hope and love.

Cutting Away The Pain - US
Cutting Away the Pain - UK
Cutting Away the Pain - Canada
Cutting Away the Pain - Australia

You will notice that my sex story pen name, Petit Morte, is on Cutting Away the Pain, as well as my real name.  If you want to find all of my sex stories, look at the Petit Morte author page.  And there is one other pen name you might be interested in.

5 - Trade is one of four gay m/m erotic short stories I have published on Kindle.  I was making quite a living for a little while writing short gay erotic short stories for actual m/m porn sites.  The Kindle books are under the pen name of Randall "Silver" Fox.  They were written for men who love men - before the universe knew about women who love men who love men, thus I am not too sure of their reception by that particular audience.  As always in my sex stories, less gushy romance, more hard sex with no bullshit.

Trade - US
Trade - UK
Trade - Canada
Trade - Australia

For the last few years I haven't written any sex stories and pretty much thought I was out of it.  But those little books just sell and sell and sell and sell.  And I do have the occasional idea float through my head.  Who knows?  Some of my best sellers are little "how to" sex books, and I could certainly easily write more of those.

So that said, I selected a few representatives of that body of work to put up for free for the next few days.  Feel free to sample. All these are U.S. links.

Naughty Wife at the Formal Dinner
How to give your Lover A Sexy Lap Dance
My First Time With A Woman
Fairy Wings

Now tomorrow, I will have one more freebie to share.

Meanwhile, go forth have a wonderful New Years celebration.  May many blessings be yours in 2017.

I'm staying up until midnight because I want to watch this fucking year die.  Die.  DIE.

2017 is going to be so much better - and more productive!


Summer Foovay

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Thank you so much

Thank you so much.  You, the people who subscribe to my blogs on Kindle, the people who purchase my Kindle books, because of you I received ten dollars in the bank today.  And because of that ten dollars I was able to do a little food shopping and make sure my husband has the 8-12 ounces of protein he needs PER DAY on hemodialysis from now until his disability check comes in.

This has been a rough month in a rough year.  I got told yet again, a few days ago, that my husband is going to die.  Yeah, one of these days.  So are you, bitch.

But not yet!

We are hanging in there, and I'm sure you are, too.  2016 has been a hell of a year for so many of us, if only because of the genius creators who have left the world this year - people whose work we will miss dearly.

2017 is going to be better.  My numerology and astrology and gut feeling says so!


Summer Foovay

Friday, December 16, 2016

Reading About Writing

I'm a pantser, I admit it.  Things float to the top of the flotsam and jetsam in my mind and I write them down.  Sometimes they eventually link up and turn into something worth creating in a real novel or story form, other times it's just as well I lose lots of those bits of paper and files in my computer.

That said, for the last few years I've really been wanting to step up my game as a writer.  Both for financial reasons, and personal ones.  Like feeling like I really accomplished something or adding something to the world that might be of benefit tp somebody someday.

So I've been reading lots of books and blogs and articles and watching videos about writing.  I've tried different methods and software.  I believe my writing is getting better, and I'm certainly coming to some ways to be more productive.  Maybe someday I'll have something to publish and brag on (soon).

I haven't really shared all this process with you, dear readers, because I don't figure you really care about that part of a writer's life.  If I were a stablehand, would you really want to hear about the nuts and bolts of cleaning shit out of horse stalls?  (And yet shoveling shit is a very important and worthy job - one I have often had and loved).

But I read a blog post today that had me laughing my ass off, really, right here in the dailysis center waiting room.  If I didn't know they already think I am one crazy woman I'd be worried about their impressio nof me cackling away while looking at the computer.  I think anyone who READS knows where this blogger (and author) Kristen Lamb, is coming from.  I know I do and I've deleted many a book from my Kindle for these exact reasons.  Checking and rechecking my own work for these flaws is part of the long delay between publications you've grown used to.

Why The Reader Put That Book Down is a blog post you have to read, whether you are a writer or a reader.  At the least it will amuse you mightily, and at best perhaps it will make a few of us who write stop and think before we put our fantasies out there in front of an audience.

Thanks, Kristen Lamb, I needed a good laugh today!


Summer Foovay

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Not For Everyone

We might survive the rest of 2016 yet.

This big beautiful blue full moon rising behind pink sunset clouds was so much prettier in real life than in any of the photos I tried to take.  Like so many things, my camera and also this new used computer leave a lot to be desired and so this is the best of the bunch I took and shared the best way I can.  And that's the story of 2016.

Doing the best we can with what we've got.


Although that isn't really what I intended to write about when I started this post.

My writing style simply is not for everyone.  Try as I might, I really am not very good at light, bright, funny, happy little books.  Even my sex stories lean to the dark side.  In July I even started what I intended to be a really silly tale about fluffy bunnies and unicorns - and I wasn't three chapters in before we learned that fluff bunnies eat their babies.

It just isn't in me.

A dear friend with whom I had shared many long, insightful talks once described me to my face as always smiling and happy, but always with that shadow of sadness underneath.

I was shocked.  I didn't think anyone could tell how sad I am underneath.  After all, I don't admit it to myself most of the time.  True, I had a really dismal childhood, and that has left me without the unconditional love of a family for my entire life.

Can't miss what you ain't never had.  Can spend your life crying or laughing and I know which one I would much rather do.  And who cares about that when you have kittens and dandelions and sunshine?  And I am so very blessed to have the unconditional love of a good man - which is so much more than so many people ever get to have in their adult life.  All that crap was almost fifty fucking years ago, after all.  Get over it already.

But my writing clearly reflects that inner self - the one that says light and life and joy are all well and good, but there are bad, horrible, painful things in the world and lets not forget them.  (I don't have to make up vampires or demons - real human beings are far more cruel and evil in my personal experience)

Pagan that I am, I believe that the light is far more enjoyable when you know there is also the dark.  And in the dark - there are stars and planets and moons to enjoy.  A little light always breaks through from somewhere, you just have to look for it.  Snipers will tell you, most humans never look up.  

But if you don't have the guts to look into the darkness, and maybe even risk dwelling in it for a while  - maybe my books and stories are not for you.

And that's okay.  Maybe someday I'll find my audience, and there will be more than ten people in it.  I don't expect my audience to be everybody.  Actually, there are probably more than a few readers out there who are sick to death of all happily ever after light and joyful books.  I kind of get sick of them myself.  I also don't like books that wallow in the darkness, or people who love to suffer and be victims (oh yes, you know there are some - I bet you know at least one).

It's like this.  The darkness is there.  Deal with it, and move on.  You can choose to stand in the light or the darkness.  But I can't pretend the darkness isn't there.  When else would I get to see the moon shine and falling stars?


Summer Foovay

Sunday, December 11, 2016

A Layman's Guide to Peritoneal Dialysis, looking for some first readers!

Several months ago I whipped out a layman's guide for peritoneal dialysis manuscript inspired by what I felt was a clear need for a simple, easy to read guide giving basic information about peritoneal dialysis for patients, their families, friends, caregivers, and the medical personnel who encounter peritoneal dialysis at work and have no knowledge about it.  Of course, much of the inspiration for that was because at the time my poor hubby was in and out of the hospital and I was constantly having to explain our needs for his peritoneal dialysis treatments to people who knew little or nothing about it.  Not that I mind, of course, but I could see there was a need for a little book or pamphlet even with the basics for people who don't need a six week course on the subject just to help us out for a day or two.

We were a little busy for the next few months until the hubby stabilized.  He is doing better now although there are still some things to sort out medically which I hope will be taken care of this month for the most part.

However, I am trying to get back into writing and even more so into finishing and publishing some of the many WIP floating around here.  I was actually looking for a different manuscript when I ran onto this one, and suddenly found myself writing, editing, fact checking, and polishing it up.

After all the medical folderol this year, I have my doubts as to whether I can speak intelligibly to anyone, especially about the medical issues we have been through.  So I have published this manuscript, A Layman's Guide to Peritoneal Dialysis on Wattpad.  I respectfully request that my beloved readers find a few minutes in their busy day to read through it, make comments here or there, let me know if it is clear, correct, understandable, and any questions you might have, or suggestions for this book before I give it a final polish and publish it on Kindle.  I think I might even put it on Createspace as well so it can reach a wider audience who might find it useful.

What do you think?  Thank you for your time.


Summer Foovay

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Today A Heartfelt Thank You

Chronic Kidney Disease, which usually progresses eventually to End Stage Renal Disease, has a number of symptoms and effects that are not generally known or discussed - even by your medical professionals.
The body's largest excretory organ is the skin.  When your kidneys are not working well, your body will attempt to remove some of the toxins by pushing them out through your skin.  All of us who have ever been teenagers are well aware of what that will cause - acne - as well as other skin lesions.  Because of the action of removing toxins, even a minor skin "boo-boo" as we call them, can turn into a major mess.  
Almost all ESRD patients are forced onto Medicare.  This is because the cost of dialysis in the U.S.A. is so high that no matter what insurance you have, you will likely hit the payment ceiling in a matter of months.  At least here in New Mexico, NO dermatologist that I can locate accepts Medicare.  This means no medical care for your skin problems.
In spite of all this, my husband has remarkably nice skin for a kidney patient.  There are a number of reasons for this, some of which you might be willing to do, some of which might be too difficult or not worth it to you.
Which brings us in a roundabout way (but the explanation was necessary) to my thank you today.
For many years now we have been using a product from Nelsons, called Bach's Rescue Remedy Creme.  It is a homeopathic cream for the treatment of minor sores and skin irritations.  And it works.  It can close up a paper cut in a day.  (Don't you hate those?  Pain so out of proportion to the injury - and then every time you wash your hands, or do the dishes, or shower - ow ow ow!) Put on a zit and it makes it either head up and go away, or simply go away - again in only a day or two.  Same for most other sores, boo-boos, owies, and minor skin eruptions.  
But it is hard to find.  Don't ask me why.  Check your local health food outlets.  Ask them for it.  They can usually order it.  You can order it from Amazon, but the last time I did they they sent Rescue Remedy GEL.  Which is all well and good but that is for muscle aches and pains.  Not what I needed for the hubby.  All the health food stores here are out of Rescue Remedy Creme, and their distributors are out of it, and they MIGHT get some in January.  Possibly.  A few tubes.  
So in desperation, I wrote the parent company to ask if there was any way I could order directly.  I would happily buy a case or two if need be.  We'll use it.  Customer service emailed me back and told me to look all the places I had already told them I had already looked.  So, I admit, I wrote a pretty snarky email back asking if they had even read my first email - where I stated I had already checked all the local outlets.
A very nice lady wrote me back with sympathy.  She explained that even their warehouses are out right now.  But she had gone through the office and found several samples she was willing to mail to me if I would send my physical address.  Which I did.  The Rescue Remedy Creme arrived yesterday and the hubby and I both did a happy dance.  And then immediately dabbed some on the immediately accessible boo-boos.  (We were on our way to his dialysis appointment)
She also tucked in a bottle of their Rescue Remedy tincture - for the stressed out caretaker! 
Nelsons deserves a very big thank you. A thank you for being a kind and compassionate company that provides a good and important product that WORKS and for being willing to provide real customer service and even some kindness to a rather desperate customer - as well as understanding for my snarkiness.  You can find their website here: and their products, well, if you are lucky!  
If you happen to be a kidney patient, or be caring for one, or know one - here's our full routine.  It works for us - but be aware that my husband has a somewhat different cause of his kidney disease (it is congenital) so if you choose to use all or any of it, be aware of your own particular needs and problems.  As always, I am not any kind of a medical professional and this should not replace actual advice from your doctor, etc.  
On a nightly basis before bed I use a fairly stiff vegetable brush.  I go over him from head to toe, following that with a rather rough washcloth to brush off the dead skin removed by the brush.  I put Bag Balm (in the big square metal can) on the lumps and scars.  It takes time, but it has actually made many of them go away completely.  Rescue Remedy Creme for active boo-boos, that is anything with a scab or that is open.  Heals them fast.  Then from head to toe again, a good moisturizer.  For those of us on low incomes, this is what I actually use.  The cheap Cocoa Butter moisturizer from Walmart (it's about $2 for a big bottle) mixed in my hand with a shot of Vitamin E oil (also about $2 at Walmart for a small bottle).  Massaging in the moisturizer also helps with blood circulation, keeping the edema (if there is any) from pooling in his ankles, and all the usual benefits of massage.  
The same routine wouldn't hurt any of us ;) but it is especially good for him. Maybe this will help someone and again - my gratitude to Nelson's for their kindness and caring.  And great products.
(No affiliation, no payment or commission - just unsolicited truth)

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Wave bye bye to the nice #Nanowrimo2016

Well, I tried.  Poor Ming's cat tale of woe stalled out at 18,201 words.  That, at least, is finally an accurate count because I did spend a day gathering all the bits and bobs from the cloud and typing in the chapters that were handwritten in the notebook.  Because I originally set other WIP projects aside to work on something fresh for Nanowrimo, I find it fair that I now set Ming aside to return to those projects.

I am quite excited to start moving the current projects into Shaxpir.  Some of my WIP that were considered for Nano are literally scattered over several notebooks.  The WIP I set aside I believe will benefit considerably from being brought into Shaxpir for organizing and editing and rewriting.

So here is what I hope to accomplish in December.  Some of ongoing, some of it for this month.

Looking back, I see many months this year had only one entry in this blog.  And without even looking I can be pretty sure it is a rant about some quack or quirk of the medical system and their ongoing effort to kill my husband.  Man, it's been a hella year.  So one thing I would like to do is post here about six to eight times this month, and let them finally be posts about progress and writing and other interesting things.  

I have concluded I rather like the Wattpad platform, and I will be finally finishing the first story arc for Serendipity there (a lightish animal lovers New Mexico based mystery series).  I will be continuing my bloggish essays for A Mile In My Moccassins.  And I am still playing with the idea of another series or two I may publish at Wattpad.  I don't know if it will really help that much as far as book sales.  My attitude about - I write for a living, why on earth would I give away my writing - has adjusted.  Because of my Reiki studies, partially.  Among other things.  I don't know really how to explain it, so I'm not going to try right now.  Maybe later.

Much of my time vanishes into reading, gaming, anime, drawing, and of course studies (Reiki, Japanese, Origami) and now that I live literally a few blogs from a bead shop it is almost inevitable that I will soon be beading again as well.  It would be nice if I could find a good outlet to sell some of my crafts that isn't more trouble than the few pennies I profit is worth.

Speaking of pennies, I still work at the Mechanical Turk, too, of course. I try to make about a dollar a day there, which can take anywhere from a few minutes to a couple of hours. Pathetic, I know, but then it actually comes to more per month than my Kindle sales!  I really truly cannot leave my husband alone, or be unavailable to him, for any period of time now - so it is what it is.

I'd really like to increase my Kindle income to a point that I could conceivably live on it if I had to.  I don't need much.  And it would help us replace and repair some of the many material things that went to hell this year.

My current WIP include: a complete rewrite for the third book in the Blue Dragonfly series, the ongoing edit/rewrite of A Coyote, A Tanuki, and a Kitsune, and a non-fiction book about peritoneal dialysis for laymen and the many, many, many medical professionals who don't know a thing about it.  It needs a couple of sections added, a fact check, and rewrite and edit.

I continue to write for the Jigsaw Puzzles blog as articles come available (mostly its newsy these days), as well as the Bird Watchers Notebook - New Mexico.  Hopefully all of my blogs will get a bit more attention this month, and into next year.

Meanwhile on the personal front, the husband is improving and recovering slowly but surely.  The cardiologist has surgery he wants to do once dialysis is going well, as does the hematologist/oncologist.  Dialysis is going better, although it is still a bit short of the standard.  All we can do is wait while this fistula finishes maturing - in spite of the fact that it has been forced into being in use early.  And hope we can manage to keep him out of the hospital and away from the hospitaler doctors.  A few PCPs that do rounds at the hospital were suggested to me, but after I did some research on them and spoke to their offices, we concluded they were as bad or worse than the hospitalers provided to us.  The best we could hope for would be neglect.  So - let's just hope and pray and affirm that we're going to keep him out of the hospital altogether.

Thanks for reading.  Thanks for caring.  Have a good holiday season.


Summer Foovay